I realized today that I have a little fringe of wispy new hair growing in under my bangs... replacing all of the hair that fell out when Sage died because my body was overloaded on stress. My body is starting to heal. My heart doesn’t know how to yet. I don’t know that it ever will. ❤️🌈🌟

Zach talked me into buying a little pre-lit glitter covered artificial tree that would be “just for Sage” today. “Its all sparkly and lights up the whole room, just like Sage. Plus I can hug it.” (This was after we brought home SageBear - the mini Costco bear that reminded of him of Sage. ❤️).

🌈❤️🌟✨ Sweet boy. He misses them so much.

I’m all over the fucking map these days. 😜💕 Oh well... it is what it is.

Went to get a new key for my van. A friend hooked me up with a really great deal. And between the time I had a totally chill conversation with the guy and he took my key and went to his van to make it, and when he came back, I saw something random on FB that made me laugh, and then cry... which is exactly when he came back. Left and I was happy and smiling... came back and I was crying. 😳💕😂 Fuck. I am a hot mess.

​The funny part... what I saw was something that I totally would have sent to Sage and they would have laughed. It made me miss them so much it hurt. 🌈💔🌟 Laughter. Tears. All fucking mixed up together. I miss you chicadee. Every fucking second.